Upstairs

Tonight I had dinner at Thai Rama.

Do you see that “Call In Orders Only” sign? Well, so far EVERY time I’ve called in an order – someone answers the phone, asks me to hold, puts the phone down on the counter and never picks it up again. Then for the rest of the night it’s busy! It’s the strangest thing. I then have to drive down there.. order.. and wait. I think that sign is a trick – or some sort of a test.

Before I went in to eat, I realized that there was this GIANT painting in the sky. I took a photograph of it – but it really doesn’t even come close to the original. They never do.

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Inside Thai Rama, Sean and I were talking about the ways (or way) of realizing the purpose of life.. I didn’t quite realize the purpose of life, but I did realize something. I could sense something shift a bit in my mind. I can’t quite put it into words, but I think that is a good thing – or, that is part of the realization.

Later, we were sitting in my car, in the dark with the engine running, and as he was talking (and explaining and praying) I realized that the conversation we were having had happened so many times in so many forms in so many places for so many years, that truly – in the end – they were words – words are just words. This forever stream of uncountable words. I think I am starting to see something true in the simplicity of action. It’s obvious that action is more important than words, but I’m starting to realize it – starting to believe it.

Earlier today, (I think it was about 10:56am) I realized that every word I say (every word that is heard) is real to the person I’m saying it to. They are listening and processing it.. it has a strange sort of permanence I never realized until today.

These two realizations are not profound. I think that’s the point though.. some days you just realize things that are true and you change a little bit.

While I was inside Thai Rama eating, the beautiful painting faded away into darkness. There’s something true in that. I love that. That makes sense. It would have appeared and faded even if I wasn’t here to see it.